ATTITUDE

Alright, it's been a few days since I've posted but I don't really have anything to say so I suppose I'm just going to talk?! I graduated bartending school on Monday and have since then been doing absolutley nothing. I'm beyond ready to start work and had a job interview yesterday but am now waiting for a call regarding my employment status. Ugh, everytime. Honestly I think I'm just ready to be out of the house, I've been here all week alone and studying just to keep up with my drink recepies but I'd like to be able to go do something sometimes, even if it's just a walk around the park. I know what you're thinking, "why not just go?" well mainly that's because I live in a crappy town far from my beloved Nashville and to drive out there to walk alone while unemployed would be a waste of gas and money. I've also been thinking about how rarley I see my Kelley now and in a way it's not baddd because I hate being at my house so I imagine she'd rather not be here either but I still love having her next to me all night and when I wake up, or just sitting around being dumbasses like we always do after we get a few drinks under our belts.
   I definitley believe that my first priority upon working will be to move out, maybe I can haggle with the owner and get away from down payments and just move in immediatley and actually be happy, I need some alone space and a place for me and her to act natural and yell and be drunk as hell and laugh and be awesome. Honestly....the real reason I want to move so bad is the people I'm living with. I'm not one to ever really talk about my feelings mainly because people have worries of their own and I feel like talking about mine is just adding more shit to their pile but GOD DAMN, I don't remember the last time my "mother" and I have gotten along at all, it's always an argument about some kind of petty dumb bullshit, or yelling, or me being a burdon. I try to not care but for goodness sake I'm your son. I'm actually going to just sum this up quickly, I don't really talk to anyone in my family other than my grandparents so there's no need for me to be here I don't think.
   Besides all that, everything is ok I guess..... at least I get tattooed Monday and my chest will be closer to being completley finished if not all the way done. I think I've decided I'm going to move and save alot of money and then hopefully take a beach trip for about a week....goodness that would rule. Me on a beach not caring about anything or anyone except sand and water hopefully with that rad lady I know, sounds like perfection.